I still hate October....

So I still hate October even after all these years. At the start is my grandma's birthday (yesterday) in heaven who I miss so much and at the end if my first baby son William's birthday in heaven, who I miss so much. When I went to a psychologist she said I get anniversary grief in October and I was like "Can you get it for the whole month"? Which apparentently you can. And because of other crap in my life in the last few months because of a pathetic excuse for a man, I am already emotional....

So if I seem even more emotional this month, irrational, moody, bitchy...now you know why! So I apologise in advance if I cannot be "too kind and too nice Monique" this month.

After the last jerk ex I may just have been put off men for life! So sick of their bullshit! So maybe I will just CHOOSE to stay single for the rest of my life! Unless of course Hugh Jackman ever comes knocking on my door lol

My tolerlance for men and their bullshit is at an all time low and I feel like "bitch Monique" is quite present at the moment but probably mainly just to protect myself from any other lying, using and pathetic arseholes from trying to get their foot in my life! It's ain't gonna happen, I am so done!

I am grateful for all the love I have in my life though, thankful for my kids, family and friends. Grateful that no matter what there are always reasons to smile and laugh.....but I still hate October!